I doubt he thinks about it like that. He just sees it as his duty to go on investigating.
Harry was accurate in that Ron and Hermione would try to act upset, but would secretly approve. He doesn't want that. He wants sincere outrage and sympathy, because he thinks that he is right in the way he approaches the case.
Thank you for saying that! So many people saying Malfoy's mad have made me wonder about how I'm presenting the character. Really, it's Harry's viewpoint that's influencing how he comes across more than anything.
And yes, he does know the truth. It won't be long before he can't hide from that anymore.
Mostly, Harry endured a long series of hard cases in which he had to work alone (undercover) and had bad things happen to him (the death of his first partner, having his mind invaded, being tortured by Dark wizards etc.) His obsession is with self-control more than anything else, and he thinks that if he can't be the perfect Auror, if he betrays emotion- or loss of inhibition, which revealing his fantasies would involve- then other people will despise him. Because he would despise himself.
It's going to end happily, as in "both characters alive."
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Date: 2009-09-23 01:01 am (UTC)Harry was accurate in that Ron and Hermione would try to act upset, but would secretly approve. He doesn't want that. He wants sincere outrage and sympathy, because he thinks that he is right in the way he approaches the case.
Thank you for saying that! So many people saying Malfoy's mad have made me wonder about how I'm presenting the character. Really, it's Harry's viewpoint that's influencing how he comes across more than anything.
And yes, he does know the truth. It won't be long before he can't hide from that anymore.
Mostly, Harry endured a long series of hard cases in which he had to work alone (undercover) and had bad things happen to him (the death of his first partner, having his mind invaded, being tortured by Dark wizards etc.) His obsession is with self-control more than anything else, and he thinks that if he can't be the perfect Auror, if he betrays emotion- or loss of inhibition, which revealing his fantasies would involve- then other people will despise him. Because he would despise himself.
It's going to end happily, as in "both characters alive."