now I'm confused. Is Harry playing himself now, or rather, the person he'd like to be (or have to be) to be content and happy with himself?
or is what he's doing something idiotic and too fast forward again?

...Harry thinks too much, that's how it started, I think. (apart from trauma and war and all those things that are too much for one person to handle all alone. except he didn't have to handle them alone.)

and I can't believe Ron insulted Harry - Harry, of all people, his best mate, for god's sake - because he's gay. A real friend wouldn't do that, even if he/she were homophobic.